joyce is the name of a girl long ago

I've been listening to the Black Keys off and on lately on Rhapsody....they really are good.  Check out "Lies" from Attack and Release.....and I really like the guitar riff on "I Got Mine"  ---- 

..I can't believe I slept all freaking day!   

This is the thing.  I work nights...Tuesday through Saturday.  And so, last night and tonight are my "days off."  Well, I had so many things I wanted to do today...just like a normal day-time person...but instead I slept until 3:45 p m!!!! (so frustrating)  Nothing I can do about it but get off of this keyboard, make some tea, put on some music and get going with my Monday. I will still make a great dinner (as planned) for my husband and me tonight.  I just need to go through my favorite cookbook ever (the big orange Bon Appetit cookbook) and decide what to make. 
Why did I sleep...so long......

Oh well, just gotta live and not worry about some of the questions.  Maybe the answer to "why" is because I was awake from 3pm Saturday until 2am Monday morning....

There we go.  Now I don't feel so bad.  Ok.....now to find some music...

hi guys...
i've been taking the e-drug for...uh... about 3 and a half years now....

i did get favorable results.  was diagnosed with "acute clinical depression due to life circumstances"  (something like that) and the meds helped bring me back from the absolute inability to smile, laugh, react to people with any amount of positive expression (also known as laughing or smiling...)  ....but, really, i couldn't bring myself out of the deep despair.  after about 3 weeks of taking effexor i was markedly better.  i weaned myself off of it (extremely important to "wean" not just "stop) after a year but had to get back on it after my 12 year old son went to live 500 miles away with his dad.  now, i am once again weaning off of the drug.  i am down to a 37.5 dose.  so far i'm not depressed again....although i have felt some anger for a change...not really a bad thing. 

i'll see how this goes... 

What is your definition of cheating?

  Cheating is this...

when someone is faced with a challenge or frustration or situation that seems to be unbearable .....

....and they decide to take the "easy" way out of this situation.  That is cheating. 

 

You may be cheating on your spouse, boyfriend, girlfriend, children, boss, friend, parents, yourself, your God, nature, society, talents, dreams, integrity, beliefs, etc...on and on it can go.  It can be something as insignificant as a card game or as significant as your husband.  If you step aside from the reality of where you are and try to go around it....you are cheating.  Believe me, when it is all said and done....you lose....and when it is as significant as a husband or wife, you are affecting your children and so many more people than you realize.  Another characteristic of cheating is justification.  If you find yourself feeling the need to justifiy your actions, you are probably cheating.  Don't cheat.  If it is the last thing you do...don't cheat.

Had Natalie Merchant on Rhapsody today..playing at a perfect volume...not blasting, but not in the background either.  She just totally takes any melancholy I'm experiencing and makes it acceptable...even desirable.  Best song I heard today?  Hmmm.....I'm going to say "San Andreas Fault" -- I almost chose "Seven Years"...but this one really hit me today.  Lyrics are below...but you've gotta hear her sing it to truly appreciate it.

San Andreas Fault

Go west
paradise is there
you'll have all that you can eat
of milk and honey over there

you'll be the brightest star
the world has ever seen
sun-baked slender heroine
of film and magazine

go west
paradise is there
you'll have all that you can eat
of milk and honey over there

you'll be the brightest light
the world has ever seen
the dizzy height of a jet-set life
you could never dream

your pale blue eyes
strawberry hair
lips so sweet
skin so fair

your future bright
beyond compare
it's rags to riches
over there

San Andreas Fault
moved it's fingers
through the ground
earth divided
plates collided
such an awful sound

San Andreas Fault
moved its fingers
through the ground
terra cotta shattered
and walls came
tumbling down

o promised land
o wicked ground
build a dream
tear it down

o promised land
what a wicked ground
build a dream
watch it fall down

O.k., I will answer that. 

Last night we were given a little tiny kitten.  My 19 year old son has been wanting a new kitten ever since his cat Fred was killed by a dog.  (this was very traumatic ... my son and I were both crying.....Logan, my son is a big strong 6 foot 3 weight-lifter, but he was reduced to tears that day)  Anyway, Logan's new kitten didn't seem very healthy and cried almost constantly.  Logan called me this afternoon and told me that something just had to be done about his kitten.  He cried all the time and wouldn't eat or drink anything.  To top it all off, he peed on Logan last night while he was sleeping.  Now, Logan is like a gentle giant.  He is very patient and very kind to animals, or anything or anyone who is weak and helpless.  But, Logan was starting to get "pissed off" --- mainly because he cared about his cat. 

So, I called the local vet and made an appointment right away for the little guy.  My mom and I took him in and he had a thorough exam.  He weighs just 1 pound.  He had fleas pretty bad.  He was most likely anemic due to the fleas.  He received a rectal thermometer reading (all o.k. at 102 degrees).  He had an anti-flea pill forced down his throat.  He had his first vaccination in his little rump.  And he had his claws trimmed.  The wonderful vet's office gave us a bag of scientific diet food, once a month flea treatment, vitamins, and worm medicine.  Oh, and also a "new cat" booklet.  They were really great people.  (that is Cedar Creek Veterinary Clinic)  And, it didn't even stink in that place, as opposed to most vet offices I have visited! 

On the way home we stopped at the store and got some wet cat food, cat dishes, and a little basket to make a bed for him.

So, we brought "Weezy" home to Logan.  (This is the final decision on a name, according to my son.)  You know what?  Logan just seemed so grateful that I did all that.  And I was so happy to do it. 

You see, my son is on house arrest for some theft crimes he committed back in August of 2007.  He has to live with my parents because they live in the county were the crimes happened and we live in a neighboring county.  My parents are so good to him and he has a good situation there with them.  But, I knew that he needed something or someone who needed him.  He has to rely on other people right now and really has no one to care for.  This little kitten will be really good for him -- and he will be good to the kitten.  He really cares about Weezy and was so glad that I took him to the vet at a time when he felt helpless because he can't leave the house for something like that.

It just feels good to know that we are helping this tiny little kitten...and through doing that, maybe I'm giving something rewarding to my son.